when you over think

all you are doing is making you sick to your stomach.

this cute boy with dreads makes me get the butterflies 

&

sometimes i wish i had the guts to say hi.

you never know what could 

happen with just a 

simple

HELLO.

do you remember when... 

cutting meant cutting in front of someone in the lunch line
[not taking a knife to your wrists]
hate meant someone stole your cookie
[not forever losing a friend]
love was meant for moms and dads
[not for boys]
boys all had cooties
[not good looks]
makeup was for Halloween and Mommy
[not to cover your face]
not eating meant you were sick
[not anorexic]
babies came from the store
[not sex]
stress didn't exist
[now it's the only thing that does]

life changes through the years . we learn. we make mistakes. we laugh. we cry. we make love. we want to give up. we stress. we over think. we live. with. no regrets.

yes; you can call me elles

be nice to everyone you meet they are fighting a battle you know nothing about

worrying won't keep the bad stuff from happening

. it just keeps you from enjoying the good.

my pet peeves

; it takes a lot to bug me but some of these peeves

 i go loco.

• the smacking of food/gum. close your mouth
• you get a text & you reply... never get one back after
• judging. why? why would you.
• when people are "too cool". grow up, your probably really insecure
• when people don't like you because of your past, religion,or what you want to do with your life. acceptance is in the dictionary. 
• you can text me all you want but once its real life & in person, its like i have a bloody b00ger on my face.
• pDA. get a room, please. its gross.
• fogging windows. 

betta gamma

lets just say i had a fun night.

daisy poem

I'd dare to make more mistakes next time. I'd relax, I would limber up. I would be sillier than I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and less beans. I would perhaps have more actual troubles, but I'd have fewer imaginary ones. If I had to do it again, I would travel lighter than I have. If I had my life to live over, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring

and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dances. I would ride more merry-go-rounds. I would pick more daisies.

when you're in a pickle.

and you just don't know what to do!

decisions are what makes your life; who knows really until it happens.

if it wasn't almost February I'd be stoked for the down pour snow but yeahhh its jan 23rd,


i honestly love to sing. can't wait for my first singing lesson. yipppyyahooo. 


that stuff called nyQuil is making me want to sleep good night 


oxoxox


let it snow. peace on earth. still can't believe it was a green christmas in 2011. when i say green i mean


the grass / no snow. 

night.

takes only 20 seconds of courage.

i promise everything to you
you're the reason for all i do
you always stand by my side and show me you care
good times, bad times you're always there
during sad times you always manage to make me smile
i know you will always be there throughout my trails
i love spending my days with you, they're so much fun
always together in rain or sun
you always make me laugh oh so hard
we always eat so much we are turning into being such fat lards
you aren't just my cousin, you're my best friend too
i promise everything to you.
-a.face
that moment when that "kid" walks into your class and sits right in front of you.seriously 
just my luck but honestly bring it on,.
anyways sometimes i wish that everyone liked everyone but lets get real;; that won't ever happen.why hate, why judge, why be rude..ok ok
yes we all have our days but honestly people who are we to judge-- can everyone just stop and take a second and show some love&peace to @ least 1 or 2,3,4,5,6,23 people each day? or is that to hard? i dare you!
: a couple weeks ago, i was having such a not so very good day and i was being the "debbie downer" "negative nancy" "poopy head" whatever you wanna call it. yup thats what i was for a second. any who the whole time my friends were saying your mood is bringing everyone down you're being so not fun, i thought for a second and they were right. you make people have happy/sad.nervous//surprised';cheerful/.angry. horny./playful silly/shocked. feelings. so try to be more aware of the things you do,cause I'm trying && cause someone is trying to follow your footsteps.
''[pigs orgasm lasts for 30 minutes)-]
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

i got 99 problems.

enough is enough.

no matter how dirty  your past is; your future is still spotless-drake.

I'm living in this car by the beach, once I'm out of college .got to smoke em all. take a hit.

game over.

yes! 2011 is over new year, new start. 2011 wasn't at all the best year for me.

20 minutes into the new year; hit a dear. grandmas in the hospital. unreal right?

it happens i guess. from two deaths in the fam, two divorces in my family, new high school.; ending friendships to new ones// trouble with the pigs;; to college

learnedmorethaniexpectedinthisyear.butt it needed to end yahOO its 2012 now

the two deaths that occurred were unexpected;

first my mormor. which means mom's mom in norwegian. 

Gunvor Rebecca Haugen.

- by far the cutest, loving mormor I've ever seen

she's the one lady i look up to. surviving 8 strokes in about 7 years. loosing her speech, her ability to write. my poppy per stood by her side through everything. she affected several people. even though she lost everything she could do. she could and would  always  laugh about anything. she would grab her boobies and bust out laughing; laughing at her mistakes she would do, others surrounding her. all together pretty much everything. then in the last couple months before she passed. she looked like a different lady than she was losing her ability to do anything but just sit, i miss her but she's in a better place. love you mormor

2nd my aunt.

 having an unexpected heart attack; that led her to her death. having an 11 year old son  which they were best of buddies was such a challenged to ever imagine. living in a small town there isn't much to do but spend time with the family, yep he was a mamas boy. she's very missed & and we won't ever forget about her unique style of living.

*other than that;

  craphappens. we just have to get over it.

freshman at the University of Utah; i wasn't expecting that. getting A's in high school. nothing like college. you hope you just pass or get an "average" c. yeah I've got to step up; but you only live once.

Utah man. am i

goooooooooo utes 

if it wasn't for these ladies. college  would of been even harder

dgs are hot. DO good.

but if it wasn't for these girls. oh gosssh not sure where i'd be.

kelsey jane

;when people meet us, first thing they say is.. best styles ever. you two. also they ask how long we've been friends for we always say only just a couple months & they get this weird shocked face on because they think we've been friends forever&a day. but in real life not that long. but for now on we will be forever. we will be the old wrinkly ladies in our rocking chairs just living life the normal way we live.

- free spirited, loves jesus;; go veggie! loves nature;she's the one that can make me be myself and gives me the giggles when no one else can.

// yupp we understand each other its actually kinda freaky;; we are kinda like that same ish.

makes me wannna be a better person;

im so happy i can call her one of my best friends she's one of a kind. oxoxo 

carli lynne.

yup, i look up to her every minute. she has the best attitude in the world; which if you only knew what she has gone through or has to go through  you would give her an applause & a free day at the spa.

she only see;s the good in everyone. she's beautiful & a flirt ya & she's good at it, 

you would never suspect her being in a wheelchair even though she looks hot in it.

she's taught me how life goes on she's always there for me

&

wants whats  best for me.

i met her in fall time and I'm so glad that we became so close in such a

lil lil time span.

I've got her back&&& while she's on my back..

be jealous; i can call her my sis.

sad, that we don't have one decent picture together.

haha

me+kelsey+carli

=

onelove.onelove.

.dont have to do much,to have fun.

mara. eve

I've know her the least out of kelsey and carli&

she's the one that knows my emotions and can't hide them from her , and knows what to do.

- doesn't take much to have fun with this gal// we love to be lazzzy&chill with my family

[] she really makes me smile & tells me the truth and knows whatsup even if i don't want to know the trruthhh. i could write a novel but my hands would start to hurt & that wouldn't be funn 

-- i can tell her  anything & she has good advice.

she'll always be on my top forever & can't wait to make more & more memories with mara.

i can look up to her  & she's got my back;

i love her with my heart and would do anything for her.

kids bop 12.

geena nichole. best friends since pre-k. would do anything for her. best friends forever & wouldn't change it for the world.

she's taught me so much through my life. we get in fights now and then but at the end we are still best friends;; since college started we haven't been as close but i know if i ever needed anything she;d be my number one go to girl! we have been through the thick n thin together and I'm so glad that I've spent my 16 years of life with her. from the summer list to different high schools to the i don't care what people thing to protecting each other i want whats best for her and i hope she knows i love her always & forever. can't wait to spend the rest of my life with this women.

once you get to know her its hard to let her leave your life, she's one of a kind and knows how to do life.

i hope our friendship last forever & ever. i call her my wife; she calls me her life partner. what more can you ask

for. more memories to come

anna, olivia

my love, best cousin, one i can tell my feelings&whats on my mind

understands and  helps me be a better person 

. even though she's a couple years younger than me, she qualifies as a best friend for me.

i haven't made the best decisions in my life and i hope that it hasn't even influenced her to do 

anything stupid because i want her life to be as good as it can be.

i mean she has everything, do you even know her?

if you don't , get to know her.

won't be disappointed, great loud laugh, good humor, beautiful,  huge heart 

and the list could go on & on & on.

when i say  huge heart.

 i mean huge heart; no ones heart is as big as hers. she hides it pretty well but

having her as a best friend, i know

she  cares about everyone &animals. 

she can be sassy & have attitude but everyone does

sometime in their life.

from skinny dipping, jeep rides, soakin up the sun, peeing, pooping

laughing, crying, trips, getting scared,

causing damage, getting in trouble

secrets, & those crazzzzy nights

ruining things whoops,

yeah we have done it  all.

im so grateful to have a cousin like her& i know she'd do anything

for me and guess what id do anything for her.

cousin  is a  sister you never had 

//

cousins by blood; best friends by  choice

i love you anna banana .

life goes on.

bring it on 2012.

i'm ready.